Days 94 & 95

So yesterday and today weren't great...they were fairly bad actually. But it's alright. I've pretty much realized that the  philosophy is as follows: If you want to eat bad, eat bad. If you are able to eat well, eat well. What it all comes down to is that if I want to lose weight, the good days need to outnumber the bad. And each bad day is one day that I am farther from reaching my goal. I think that that pretty much sums up what I've learned so far and the methodology that has been working for me these past 3 months. I mean I've lost 14 lbs following that guideline. If I have a day that I just know I'm going to eat junk, I eat it and try not to punish myself for it. But I also have long stretches of eating perfectly. And of course, I try to work out as often as I can but I'm only human and I do skip days. But I have lost 14 lbs in 3 months, and while some might not think that that's "fast" in terms of pounds per month lost, I don't really give a crap, because I have no time frame on when I lose this weight. Of course the longer the "good" stretch of constant healthy eating and exercise the sooner I will reach my goal, but I have put no pressure on myself to be a certain weight by a certain date. In fact I'm really happy with how well I've been doing this and how psychologically I've been mediating my feelings and keeping myself in check. I really thought (and maybe still think) I have a food addiction but being really observant and careful of my behavior has helped me tremendously so far. And no one can say that it hasn't worked, because I am seeing obvious results. Now I'm not going to list what I ate yesterday and today because it wasn't good at all. But tomorrow through saturday will be immaculate I will be 100% sure of it. Sunday is a gamble because we are entertaining guests again and we all know how that goes!! :-) Tomorrow is spin class (wed nights are the best!) so I'm looking forward to it! I went to crossfit this morning and of course, got my ass kicked. I was DONE. SPENT. EXHAUSTED by the time I was done. I had to do 30 swings with the kettlebell, 15 "wall balls" with a 14-lb bean bag ball, then run around the block haha. I did this 4 times. I also really REALLY thought I was going to vomit on the car ride home but I made it back ok :-). I'm always miserable during the workout but feel so victorious afterward! I highly recommend it to everyone. The website is www.crossfitbelmar.com and even if you just want more info on what I've been doing there and what it is like check it out!