1 more day until the 3 week mark...I caved and weighed myself this morning...No difference on the scale. You have no idea how discouraging it is to know that you've really been putting effort into something and not see those numbers go down. And while I feel better and even look a little better, I wonder if that part is all in my head. Maybe I just THINK I look better. Maybe I just THINK I feel better. Like a placebo effect whereas in reality there's actually no change at all. What I do know is that I won't be backing down just because the numbers on that scale aren't budging. I'm working out, only drinking water/unsweetened iced tea/green tea, I've cut down my sugar intake and I'm eating really pure, nutritious foods. I'm not doing anything wrong. I could definitely increase my exercise. In reality I only worked out 4 times this week so either that wasn't enough for me to lose weight, or I already started building muscle. Either way this entire endeavor is long-term and I know that over time I will be where I want to be, and I'm in no rush to get there.
Being emotionally ready for this type of journey is half the battle, and I think I'm psychologically in a better place than a lot of people that are half my size. I hear "skinny" people I know talk about how they hate themselves in pictures, or compare themselves to other skinny girls, or think some guy won't be into them because they are comparatively less skinny than other girls. The funny part is I never think any of that. I never think that my weight is a factor in how somebody else will appreciate me. I always post my pictures regardless of whether it's a flattering one or not, and I always think I'd have a chance with a guy who has dated someone thin in the past. I don't know if this is blind ignorance or if it's a beneficial outlook on my part, but I think the fact that I'm already happy with who I am BEFORE any weight loss is what is driving me to do well with my goal. Because it's not about "transforming" or "becoming a new person". I am already the person I want to be, and I'm just striving to be the best possible version of myself and treat my body the way it deserves to be treated. And I certainly don't want to take any of my opinions to be misconstrued as conceit, I simply think that I have failed so often in the past because I was using weight loss as a way to become someone different. I would go into each diet thinking that if I became thinner I'd become ideal in some way. But over time and as I've grown, I wouldn't want to be anyone but who I am today, and any improvement I can achieve in my health and wellbeing is simply for my own benefit.
I am also very lucky to have people who are supporting me with each step I take on this endeavor. Just from creating this blog I have seen that everybody wants me to succeed for one reason or another, and it's very encouraging to have people behind me every step of the way.
Now that I've gotten all that out, here's the fun part of every posting. The food diary!
Breakfast:
-1 slice whole wheat toast with 1 tbsp low sugar peanut butter
*I feel like I've been "overloading" at breakfast. It doesn't take much to keep me satisfied and I don't want to overdo it if I don't have to. 1 slice of bread was sufficient, versus the 2 I've ben eating.
Lunch:
- 1 chicken burger, grilled with salt, pepper & garlic powder on a whole wheat sandwich thin with 1/4c melted mozzarella cheese, spinach, tomato, and 1 tbsp tomato basil hummus.
*This was so absolutely delicious. This recipe is a winner. I tried to work some vegetables into lunch this time around since I notice I've been eating lots of meat and grains. I was satisfied for hours and I love that a chicken burger can essentially be seasoned to taste however I want it to taste! One thing I've noticed is that the whole wheat sandwich thins I bought have a sweet taste that has bothered me the entire time I've been eating them...I finally looked at the ingredients today and there is splenda in it! I hate splenda, and I always notice its taste no matter what it is in! Not sure if I will be buying these in the future.
-1 breyers fat free light banana strawberry yogurt
*eh, just ok.
Snack:
-1 sugar free chocolate pudding snack
*such a great go-to snack. I like it even better when we have bananas because I like to dunk it in the chocolate, it feels much more decadent that way.
Dinner:
-1 4oz chicken breast, coated with dijon mustard then dipped in whole grain breadcrumbs and baked
-1 cup of steamed broccoli
*A customer at the salon gave me the above chicken dish idea. I missed eating breaded chicken cutlets but I won't eat plain white breadcrumbs anymore and I didn't want to add calories by using egg to coat the chicken with. The mustard adds nominal calories but lots of flavor, and as for the breadcrumbs I actually made them myself from 2 slices of whole grain bread which I hardened in the oven then crushed.
Dessert/Snack:
-2 trader joe's dark chocolate caramel wedges
-1 mug of hot green tea with 1/2 tsp agave nectar
*seriously great buy on my part haha
Water:
-On my 5th large glass now.
I tried not to overdo the eating today, since it can be more difficult to stick to the plan when I'm home and bored and snowed in. But I kept myself occupied all day so that I wouldn't be tempted to eat around the clock. I don't feel hungry at all, and am very satisfied with the foods I've been eating. Temptation is the hardest part, as is habit. It's hard to look at something fried that my mom has made and not just grab a piece as I walk by the table. Things like that will take some getting used to. But for now my tactics have been working, and although the numbers on that scale haven't moved, I know that I'm achieving something in terms of the bigger picture.
Being emotionally ready for this type of journey is half the battle, and I think I'm psychologically in a better place than a lot of people that are half my size. I hear "skinny" people I know talk about how they hate themselves in pictures, or compare themselves to other skinny girls, or think some guy won't be into them because they are comparatively less skinny than other girls. The funny part is I never think any of that. I never think that my weight is a factor in how somebody else will appreciate me. I always post my pictures regardless of whether it's a flattering one or not, and I always think I'd have a chance with a guy who has dated someone thin in the past. I don't know if this is blind ignorance or if it's a beneficial outlook on my part, but I think the fact that I'm already happy with who I am BEFORE any weight loss is what is driving me to do well with my goal. Because it's not about "transforming" or "becoming a new person". I am already the person I want to be, and I'm just striving to be the best possible version of myself and treat my body the way it deserves to be treated. And I certainly don't want to take any of my opinions to be misconstrued as conceit, I simply think that I have failed so often in the past because I was using weight loss as a way to become someone different. I would go into each diet thinking that if I became thinner I'd become ideal in some way. But over time and as I've grown, I wouldn't want to be anyone but who I am today, and any improvement I can achieve in my health and wellbeing is simply for my own benefit.
I am also very lucky to have people who are supporting me with each step I take on this endeavor. Just from creating this blog I have seen that everybody wants me to succeed for one reason or another, and it's very encouraging to have people behind me every step of the way.
Now that I've gotten all that out, here's the fun part of every posting. The food diary!
Breakfast:
-1 slice whole wheat toast with 1 tbsp low sugar peanut butter
*I feel like I've been "overloading" at breakfast. It doesn't take much to keep me satisfied and I don't want to overdo it if I don't have to. 1 slice of bread was sufficient, versus the 2 I've ben eating.
Lunch:
- 1 chicken burger, grilled with salt, pepper & garlic powder on a whole wheat sandwich thin with 1/4c melted mozzarella cheese, spinach, tomato, and 1 tbsp tomato basil hummus.
*This was so absolutely delicious. This recipe is a winner. I tried to work some vegetables into lunch this time around since I notice I've been eating lots of meat and grains. I was satisfied for hours and I love that a chicken burger can essentially be seasoned to taste however I want it to taste! One thing I've noticed is that the whole wheat sandwich thins I bought have a sweet taste that has bothered me the entire time I've been eating them...I finally looked at the ingredients today and there is splenda in it! I hate splenda, and I always notice its taste no matter what it is in! Not sure if I will be buying these in the future.
-1 breyers fat free light banana strawberry yogurt
*eh, just ok.
Snack:
-1 sugar free chocolate pudding snack
*such a great go-to snack. I like it even better when we have bananas because I like to dunk it in the chocolate, it feels much more decadent that way.
Dinner:
-1 4oz chicken breast, coated with dijon mustard then dipped in whole grain breadcrumbs and baked
-1 cup of steamed broccoli
*A customer at the salon gave me the above chicken dish idea. I missed eating breaded chicken cutlets but I won't eat plain white breadcrumbs anymore and I didn't want to add calories by using egg to coat the chicken with. The mustard adds nominal calories but lots of flavor, and as for the breadcrumbs I actually made them myself from 2 slices of whole grain bread which I hardened in the oven then crushed.
Dessert/Snack:
-2 trader joe's dark chocolate caramel wedges
-1 mug of hot green tea with 1/2 tsp agave nectar
*seriously great buy on my part haha
Water:
-On my 5th large glass now.
I tried not to overdo the eating today, since it can be more difficult to stick to the plan when I'm home and bored and snowed in. But I kept myself occupied all day so that I wouldn't be tempted to eat around the clock. I don't feel hungry at all, and am very satisfied with the foods I've been eating. Temptation is the hardest part, as is habit. It's hard to look at something fried that my mom has made and not just grab a piece as I walk by the table. Things like that will take some getting used to. But for now my tactics have been working, and although the numbers on that scale haven't moved, I know that I'm achieving something in terms of the bigger picture.
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