Almost Ready!

I'm really really excited to be doing this. I've let myself go for so long and I'm finally motivated to do something about it. There are so many reasons for wanting it and I can't think of a single reason not to start now. I'm hoping that knowing people are waiting to hear updates from me each day on my progress will help keep me motivated throughout the whole 90 days. I have a lot of friends and family who have been very supportive in all my weight-loss endeavors, and they are looking forward to hearing my experiences through this blog.

I know that none of this is going to be easy. I'm going to have moments where I just want to cry, quit or give up. But I'm also going to have days where I feel empowered and invincible...and those are the days I want to hold on to! Losing weight and feeling great is something that I actually have control over, and no one can get in my way except ME. My future is mine for the taking and I want it so badly I can taste it. I'm in control here, and this time noting is going to stop me.

I just got home, and I finally got my DVDs. So I just took some time to familiarize myself with what I actually purchased. I am going to be following the Beach Body Power 90 program for the next 90 days. The package consists of: 1 DVD with a multitude of workouts ranging from "Phase 1" to "Phase 4" and includes circuit and cardio/ab workouts and 1 DVD with an express burning workout. The package also included a set of resistance bands to use with the workouts, a large wall calendar to track my daily progress, a "measurement" card so I could record my body measurements at the start and finish of the program, and a book with meals/recipes to follow.

I was going to start today, but I wasn't sure what the food plan was going to look like, and I don't have a lot of the ingredients at home. We have virtually no fresh veggies or whole grain foods at the moment and I'd also like to get a multivitamin to take as well, so I'm going to do all the prepwork today and start tomorrow. It will also give me a chance to view the DVDs so I can see what I'm getting myself into, and to also get a good night's rest.

Now to document what I've eaten today...it's hard for me to post this because I'd consider myself a food "addict" and journaling my unhealthy eating for all to see is like airing out my dirty laundry. I'm exposing my secretive, completely erratic and non-nutritional food choices to everybody and in doing that it's like I'm finally admitting to myself what kind of garbage I've been putting into my body. So here goes (this is bad):

Breakfast:

-Xmas french toast (basically substituting eggnog for the milk) with syrup

-Glass of 2% milk

Lunch:

-Grilled cheese on white bread with butter

-Tomato soup

-Kettle cooked potato chips

-a few pieces of holiday chocolate

-diet iced tea/lemonade

Snack(?)

-3 pieces of shrimp w/ cocktail sauce

-3 cocktail franks

-Keilbasa & saurkraut

-Doritos

-1 Brownie

-1 mini eclair

-1 piece of melon and a strawberry

Dinner:

-1 box (yes, 1 whole box) of kraft mac 'n cheese

-1 fruit cup (peaches)

-1 100-calorie pack of cookies

-glass of ginger ale

I look at this list and laugh, because there's no question as to how I've gained weight over the years. I don't even think I can use stress as an excuse. I'm actually surprised I'm not 300 lbs by now. But putting this out there is a way to finally get myself to realize how awful I have been to my body. And next time I post a food diary it will be virtually unrecognizable as mine.