Day 82

Today was fine, not exceptional in any way. It was a day off from working out (as Tuesdays always are) and I ate well for the most part. A few hiccups but I wouldn't call them mistakes or mess-ups. I was at work and as we know it's always tough for me to space out my meals. Sometimes I try breaking one meal up into 2 parts, which works if it's a larger-sized meal, but that strategy didn't really apply to what I ate today. I also had brought dinner with me, a recipe that has proven disgusting in the past. I really only made it so I could use what was left of the ingredients. But part of the reason I've been enjoying this whole "diet" is because I like what I'm eating and actually look forward to it! As soon as I opened the container I sighed a sigh of disappointment because I REALLY didn't want to eat what I brought. I just have such a problem throwing out ingredients even though I know I hate them! But I realized that for the sake of keeping myself motivated and in a good place some sacrifices must be made...so I threw it out!! And opted instead for some sushi. There is a place next door to my work so I ordered "Chicken Sukiyaki" which was described as "sliced chicken and vegetables with sukiyaki sauce"...sounds delicious right? Read on further to know what it actually was. So in the end, the thrown out food got its revenge because I ended up being disappointed anyway!!

Here is what I ate:

Breakfast:

-1 egg scrambled, 1 TJ's hash brown and 2 slices turkey bacon with 2 tsp ketcup
*This is usual my "healthy" breakfast. And it would have been today, if I hadn't used the pan my mom JUST used to make bacon in. Her words "oh just use the pan on the stove it's still hot" so without paying much attention I put my food in only to find that I was essentially deep-frying it in like an inch of oil. A big F**KKKKKK escaped my lips lol. So everything I ate for breakfast was deep fried (albeit delicious haha).
-Big glass of unsweetened iced tea with 1 sweet & low

Lunch:

-TJ's Mac 'n Cheese with 2oz turkey kielbasa
*This is the healthiest version of junk food I've ever eaten. I'm pretty sure this is my most favorite recipe yet lol.
-1 oatmeal cream pie
*THROWBACK!! Remember these things?? I found it in a drawer at work and it basically didn't stand a chance.

Snack:

-1 banana and a sugar-free chocolate pudding
*Big ass cup of unsweetened iced tea with 1 sweet & low

Dinner:

-Chicken Sukiyaki with white rice and 1 piece of a california roll
*OK so I pictured it to look something like this:

^Looks delicioso right? (Except I didn't expect it to come with noodles. I would have been happier with chicken and veggies in a light sauce as in the one above. Except, since I don't know Japanese culture and really only took a guess at what Chicken Sukiyaki would look like, I did not know that what I would ACTUALLY be eating would look like this:

Effing soup???? Soup?? SOUP?? S-O-U-P?? With chunks of tofu, no less. WTF? It came in a tub and when I took it out of the bag I walked BACK to the sushi place and told them they got my order wrong. LOL that's how surprised I was. But apparently, after some googling, I found that the order was, unfortunately, correct. Does this look like "sliced chicken and vegetables with sukiyaki sauce" to you? SAUCE? does that look like sauce or broth? lol. My sister ordered some california roll and she was laughing at me the entire time I ate my pathetic excuse for dinner. I tossed some rice in there to make it seem more substantial.  FYI that isn't my ACTUAL picture I found that online but it's EXACTLY what mine looked like today. It also didn't taste like anything. I was sad. I added soy sauce on it to make it taste like something. :-(

-Small salad with ginger dressing
*This helped redeem dinner a tiny bit.

Snack:

-PB&J: 2 slices whole grain bread with 1 tbsp low-sugar PB and 1 tbsp homemade peach jam
*You know, I used to always tell people that I loved fatty foods and that I didn't have a sweet tooth. It is true that I love fatty foods. But APPARENTLY not nearly as much as I love sugar!! I honestly didn't think I liked sweets until I started this blog...my cravings are always for chocolate, or fruit, ANYTHING WITH SUGAR! What's up with that?? Crazy. Just an observation. I would like to keep the sugar intake down to a minimum...If I could at least keep just my 2 snacks a day sugary rather than adding sugar to breakfast lunch and dinner I'd be happy! We'll see how that goes. Right now just taking it one day at a time :-)