So this weekend wasn't so good. I'm glad I can at least admit it and know that I will be committed to my healthy routine again tomorrow. The last few days I was trying to fight my cravings and instead was binging on food that wasn't even satisfying. Today I ate unhealthy but it at least finally satisfied my needs and I have no regrets because I know how devoted I have been to this whole endeavor and I have no doubts I will be able to stick with the plan again tomorrow. I have been doing so well up until this point, I've lost weight consistently and I'm making my first real effort towards working out. It's probably the first time in years that I've put in this much effort towards being healthier...I can honestly say that the last time I did so was when I was 18, the summer before I started college!...7 years later and I'm finally taking it seriously again. And, another first, each time I "mess up" I don't feel guilty or feel like "yelling" at myself...this whole forgive and forget thing is really new to me but I'm so happy that it's continuing this way! I'm being my biggest supporter instead of my own worst enemy for the first time. I also have friends who are really supportive of me and willing to help in every way they can. They tried to stop me from eating badly today but I already knew it was going to happen and just accepted it, but they definitely get points for trying...they were able to stop me yesterday when I really needed it!
I worked out again before breakfast today but tried not to overwork myself this time, and I ended up being just fine...I also made sure that despite eating poorly I at least worked out and drank only water - and plenty of it! I feel like it's the least I can do to somewhat justify the bad decisions I occasionally make...I'm proud to say that the only liquids I've consumed consist of unsweetened tea, water, milk & coffee...no juices, sugary drinks or sodas! That is a HUGE step for me, even more impressive to me than the good eating! I had, at one point, worked myself up to two EXTRA LARGE energy drinks a day (monster, amp, red bull) in addition to huge meals. So even though I still have a day where I just have to cut loose, I know that in terms of the big picture I'm making strides! Here is what I ate today:
Breakfast (after gym):
-1 kashi fruit & walnut bar
*I might as well have not eaten this at all, since I ended up eating lunch about 10 min later...tsk tsk.
Lunch:
-2 slices of pizza (1 tomato, 1 cheese)
*The first one was gross, which is why I then had a slice of good ole' cheese.
-1 slice of a turkey sandwich (turkey, american, tomato lettuce & onion)
*this was good and a better choice than the italian hoagie filled with fatty meats and oil!
-2 chicken fingers with approx 1 tbsp honey mustard
*They were delicious...no regrets about these haha
Snack:
-1 "now and later"
*My friend rationed 1 to me then hid the rest so I couldn't break into them...very smart of her.
-1 tbsp reduced sugar peanut butter with 1/2 apple
*Normally I would to 2 tbsp pb and a full apple but I really don't think that's necessary!
Snack:
-2 bites of a chocolate chip cookie
*annnnnnd totally worth it.
Dinner:
-1 bowl of chicken lo mein
*better than the other crap my sister had ordered the other night!
-10 baked blue corn tortilla chips with salsa
*"guiltless gourmet" chips...never heard of them, bought by my sister...they were good!
Snack:
-2 dark chocolate caramel wedges
*one of my favorite buys.
Water:
-3 bottles
Exercise:
-Treadmill: 30min, "weight loss" program, level 2, 3.4mph (no running)
-Elliptical: 30min, "random" program, level 1
*I was the nerd in the gym watching pirates of the caribbean...it makes time go by much faster!
Looking back at the food, it definitely could have been better, BUT, comparing it to my eating habits in the past, it could have been worse. Much, much, much worse. I know the large amounts of food I am capable of eating at my worst moments and this was really nothing. Plus I got in an hour's worth of cardio and plenty of water so I tried to offset it a little! I'm going to Trader Joe's again tomorrow, which usually gets me revamped (I'm running low on supplies anyway).Hopefully Definitely, by this time tomorrow night, the food list will differ greatly from what you see above!
I worked out again before breakfast today but tried not to overwork myself this time, and I ended up being just fine...I also made sure that despite eating poorly I at least worked out and drank only water - and plenty of it! I feel like it's the least I can do to somewhat justify the bad decisions I occasionally make...I'm proud to say that the only liquids I've consumed consist of unsweetened tea, water, milk & coffee...no juices, sugary drinks or sodas! That is a HUGE step for me, even more impressive to me than the good eating! I had, at one point, worked myself up to two EXTRA LARGE energy drinks a day (monster, amp, red bull) in addition to huge meals. So even though I still have a day where I just have to cut loose, I know that in terms of the big picture I'm making strides! Here is what I ate today:
Breakfast (after gym):
-1 kashi fruit & walnut bar
*I might as well have not eaten this at all, since I ended up eating lunch about 10 min later...tsk tsk.
Lunch:
-2 slices of pizza (1 tomato, 1 cheese)
*The first one was gross, which is why I then had a slice of good ole' cheese.
-1 slice of a turkey sandwich (turkey, american, tomato lettuce & onion)
*this was good and a better choice than the italian hoagie filled with fatty meats and oil!
-2 chicken fingers with approx 1 tbsp honey mustard
*They were delicious...no regrets about these haha
Snack:
-1 "now and later"
*My friend rationed 1 to me then hid the rest so I couldn't break into them...very smart of her.
-1 tbsp reduced sugar peanut butter with 1/2 apple
*Normally I would to 2 tbsp pb and a full apple but I really don't think that's necessary!
Snack:
-2 bites of a chocolate chip cookie
*annnnnnd totally worth it.
Dinner:
-1 bowl of chicken lo mein
*better than the other crap my sister had ordered the other night!
-10 baked blue corn tortilla chips with salsa
*"guiltless gourmet" chips...never heard of them, bought by my sister...they were good!
Snack:
-2 dark chocolate caramel wedges
*one of my favorite buys.
Water:
-3 bottles
Exercise:
-Treadmill: 30min, "weight loss" program, level 2, 3.4mph (no running)
-Elliptical: 30min, "random" program, level 1
*I was the nerd in the gym watching pirates of the caribbean...it makes time go by much faster!
Looking back at the food, it definitely could have been better, BUT, comparing it to my eating habits in the past, it could have been worse. Much, much, much worse. I know the large amounts of food I am capable of eating at my worst moments and this was really nothing. Plus I got in an hour's worth of cardio and plenty of water so I tried to offset it a little! I'm going to Trader Joe's again tomorrow, which usually gets me revamped (I'm running low on supplies anyway).
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